Writing for a living is a struggle, well for me it is. I’m trying to do it for a living and well it’s not turning out very well. Writing takes structure and words and well thought out planning. You give your life to it and what do you get in return? Nothing really, I mean yeah the desire that you wrote this piece of art and you let everyone read it. Words that pour from your soul onto a piece of paper. Some people don’t even care about it. They look at it and go eh and that’s it. I’m hoping for more then that.
Have you ever seen Girl Boss? I want that life. The life where you don’t care what people say, you’re going to do it anyway and your way. If writing makes me happy so be it, I want to be happy! I want to be my own boss, I want to write and sell my books. I want to wake up each morning knowing that somewhere in the world there is someone reading my book. That shit makes me happy and there is no one that can tell me otherwise. So thanks to everyone who purchased my novels and to those who read it. You are the best people in this world because you’re a passionate reader and you took the time out of your busy life to read the words that I wrote! I appreciate YOU!
Don’t take shit from anyone! You do what you want to do!
I know it’s been awhile since I wrote anything on my blog but I’m still here. My mood reflects my writing so this won’t be the most positive post. I haven’t had the ability to continue writing the sequel to my second book because I lack ambition. Hopefully I can get it back because it’s not fun being down and not able to focus. All I can think about is everything else that’s going on in my life.
I’m trying hard to promote my book. I was so happy that my yoga studio allowed me to put my books in their boutique. When I went there last night, one was sold. I was really happy! Things like that make me really happy and in all honestly I want to make people smile and feel good. My books are on smashwords and Amazon and they’re on Goodreads. I am happy that they’re both out there but I hope one day I’ll be successful and reach my goal of becoming a full time novelist. That’s my real passion. But for right now I’ll do what I can to get it out there!
I was so excited when I came home on Sunday and there was a box on my porch. I grabbed it and opened it and to my surprise there were my copies of my new book inside. I was like I have to take a picture of these. They look amazing! I can’t believe I wrote two novels already and working on the third. This journey makes me feel so blessed that I have this gift. It actually makes me feel like I finally have a purpose on this wonderful planet!
If you haven’t yet, please check out my new novel From Within on Amazon and Smashwords. I appreciate the love and support from everyone. I’m so happy I found my calling in life ❤️❤️
As I sit outside on this glorious day I’m reminded how beautiful the world really is. I’m really grateful for who I am and for what I am. Everyday I scroll through Facebook and I see this happening and that happening, things that aren’t good, and their happening to people just like you and me. I should be grateful for the things that I have and grateful for my health. I am one of those people that complains, complains a lot. That’s just not healthy, so why do it? Is it because I can’t help it? Is it because it gives me something to do? Is it because I like to hear my own voice? Who knows truly why except for me, and honestly I really don’t know why. I know being positive would be much more motivating then being negative, but I am a creature of habit. I truly can’t help it. I even watched those motivating videos and I’m like yes you can do this, but then I go right back to being negative. I’m not writing this to be negative, I’m writing this because right now I’m positive. I’m positive because I have a family that loves me, I have a husband that adores me, I have 4 wonderful pets that I wouldn’t trade for the world they are considered my kids. I have my health and everyone around me is in good health, and I’m so thankful and grateful for that. I had a biopsy done last week on my leg that the dermatologist has seen, but thankfully I received a phone call that said I’m in the clear.
Just remember to be grateful for something. Even if there are horrible things going on around you, just look inside yourself and see the good. Nobody can take that away from you. I’m grateful for writing. It may not be much and I know I’m not accomplished but it’s what I enjoy. Would I love to be successful at it? Of course I would but I’m grateful for even trying. It never hurts to try, because if you don’t try you’ll never know.
Did you know birds are my favorite animal? They are and they are because they don’t have a care in the world. They fly around from place to place, grab food, and continue on. They can fly high up in the sky, take in the world and continue on. I think they’re amazing. Today and this past week there has been a white bird around my yard. I think he was someone’s bird. It’s a Parakeet after all, I mean how many wild birds are Parakeets? I want to capture him and keep him but he won’t allow to come near him, plus I think my husband wouldn’t let me keep it. But he looks lonely and he’s all by himself sitting up in a tree. I feel bad for the poor bird. Hopefully he’ll come to his senses and fly to me.
Okay enough for today, I know it’s Friday. I hope everyone has a good weekend!! I’ll talk to you soon.
Everyday is different, I could feel fine one day and the next be depressed. My life is pretty normal, I get up, go to work, and then I go home relax. If I’m lucky go to a yoga class, I go home and then I go to bed. It’s the same thing day in and day out. Of course I squeeze writing in there somewhere because I don’t feel right without it. Today I just feel blah, straight up blah. I just want to crawl in bed and never come out. There are things in my life that are going on that I can’t really discuss because they are too personal but they are dragging me down. I want to be an accomplished writer and everyday I write to a dozen agents and some email back telling me I really enjoyed your story but it’s not for me. Others don’t even bother to even reply, which I totally get. They’re incredibly busy. If I could just have one thing go right in my life I would be super happy. But it just seems like one thing after another is falling apart. I feel like I’m at my breaking point with everything, my faith these days are at an all time low.
I’m sorry some of you will probably be like I hope she’s okay. Yes I’m fine and I will be fine. Sometimes I just need to vent. Today it’s just getting to me and everyone that is smiling at me I just want to punch in the face, I know it’s not funny, but it’s kind of funny. I looked at the calendar today and I graduated 17 years ago today. I still remember it like it was yesterday. I was so excited to start my journey to adulthood. Now I sit here and I’m not where I thought I would be. I thought I would have an amazing career and be sitting pretty with a successful husband and maybe a couple kids. Today I don’t have an amazing career and my husband isn’t successful, although he’s doing what he loves, and I still don’t have any kids. Maybe that’s a good thing. I know they say it’s never to late to start a career but eh really? I’m in my 30’s, I want to be a writer, it’s all I want to do. It’s hard though, really hard. I know things take time but how much time because some days I feel like I’m drowning.
I’m really excited about this book because personally it means something to me. When I was 12 I was in a bad accident and so I wrote a story that made me think of that time. It’s fiction but to me it could be real. I hope everyone checks it out. I really appreciate the support that you’ve been giving me. It’s hard to find people in your corner when you want to follow your dreams and write. Thank you from the bottom of my heart ❤️
From Within by M. Rose Bushey
So I’m finally excited to tell you that it’s here!! My new novel From Within in out now on Amazon!! Check it out on kindle or paperback. It’s in the process of going on Barnes & Noble as we speak!! I’m so excited please check it out!! Much love everyone and thanks for the support!!
Well folks it’s all over. The show I mean. I can’t believe how quick the time went. It was an amazing experience though. I met a lot of amazing people that I was glad to have met. I’m actually thinking about putting a book together about all of us. It would be fiction of course with a lot of drama of course. Because hello you can’t have a novel about drama when it takes place in drama haha. Okay I’m such a nerd for saying that 🙂
In other news my new novel From Within is coming out very soon. I can’t wait!! I’m working on the sequel to this particular book so that’s fun. It is fairly different then the first novel that I wrote. Don’t forget to check out Braver Than Yesterday on Amazon and Barnes & Noble.
I really want to talk about something completely different so bare with me. Have you ever did the same thing over and over again and one day it just really gets to you? I feel like lately that’s what is going on with me. I feel like there is more to life then just this. I love to write and I love to blog. It’s what I’m most passionate about and I wish that this is what I could do for the rest of my life as a full time gig. Unfortunately I need money to live, so I have this full time job that I can’t really deal with anymore. I wish I could just leave it all behind. I want to see the world. I’ve never been anywhere except for a few states surrounding me. I feel like there is so much more to life then just this, I don’t know maybe I’m having an epiphany. I’m sure it will pass but I don’t want it to. I’d rather go out and see the world and experience it and write about it. Who knows maybe one day.
So I wanted to change my pen name for my writing. It made more sense to me because there was someone else out there that had a similar name as me. So I changed it to M. Rose Bushéy. I think that sounds much better anyway. I appreciate the love and support everyone is giving me through this journey I’m on.
Hope everyone has a wonderful Memorial Day weekend!!
I can’t believe time flies by so quickly. This is the last week of the show that I’m in. 3 weeks sure comes and goes. I had a wonderful experience and I may do it again. I met a lot of people whom I hope to keep in touch with.
In other news I finally received copies of my first novel Braver Than Yesterday, which can be found on Amazon and Barnes and Noble. I’m hoping to have a book signing or possibly selling them in a local bookstore. So please if you haven’t checked it out yet please do so. Also my Facebook page under Melissa Rose Bushey. I’m actually thinking about changing my pen name to Missy Rose. What do you think about that? Is that weird? It’s just a thought. I feel like Melissa Rose Bushey is just too formal. I feel like I need to break it down.
I hope everyone is having a wonderful Wednesday and my heart and prayers go out to the families of the Manchester victims. It’s simply terrible what is going on in this world. All you need is Love!! Take care of each other! Much love!